Well it’s been one of those days when I have done nothing much worth talking about and felt totally guilty about it. I seem to have hovered over things but not done anything with them, drooled over my Basic Grey papers, dithered over my broken water pump that refuses to work despite cajolement and shaking to try to get any air bubbles out and faffed about on Facebook uploading images of myself (how vain!).
The van was sweltering today and there was the feeling of “let’s open a window” only to realise that they were all open and there was nothing to be done about it apart from stick my head in a bucket! No AC in here you know, and even if there was I am not sure I would use it…it kind of defeats the point of the English summer which let’s face it is usually elusive enough that one has to enjoy the midday sun even if it feels like suffering (mad dogs and English men and all that).
I’m feeling a little paralysed by my own work progress (or lack of it) – wondering which direction to go in and keep my momentum. I thought I might rework some old projects but frankly it’s about as appealing as wading through treacle and then walking into a giant swarm of gnats. No matter how logical and reasonable and obvious it seems I just don’t want to do it! So back in the cupboards they have all gone – probably to be chopped up at some point – which I will rather enjoy doing no doubt. So what to do when feeling paralysed by indecision? Do what you know. Do what you have no doubt about. Even if its something simple like tidy up. And that is exactly what I am going to do tonight, stitch some sequins onto this Green Umbel piece I am working on right now which was inspired by my walk the other day. But first I am going to take a walk over the fields to see if I can spot the pretty Barn Owl on his evening hunt.
Perhaps that will give me a better perspective too.